I took a chance and submitted one of my most personal poems to Mused (a literary magazine) a few weeks ago for their upcoming Spring issue. Today I received an email from them saying that my poem was selected for publishing in their March 20th issue!!! I am so excited that after putting myself, and my personal writing, out on the line I was rewarded and will be recognized! To end on a cliched note, the biggest lesson I learned from this process is to never give up on your dreams and to always keep your eyes on the prize! Here is the poem that will be published:
He read my weight in kilograms, and you began to cry.
As I watched the sad tears well and spill, I pathetically asked myself why?
Why do I continue to harm my health when I see it causes such pain?
What benefit would I achieve, what could I possibly gain?
I write this poem in a healthy weight, one year and four months past,
I knew I could never stay that thin, I knew it wouldn’t last.
The pain and hurt I saw that night in the hospital testing space,
I never again want to see the looks I saw in my parent’s face.
I remember my mother crying in the corner on the chair,
While my father wrapped his arms around me and continuously kissed my hair.
I am sorry for all the suffering and the tears I made you cry,
Still to this day and for the rest of my life, I will always wonder why.